Thursday, August 11, 2011

Unexpected Treasure

Jared and I recently finished backing up our two decrepit computers. We've been meaning to do this for some time, but as those with children know, extra project have a way of sitting for a while.

One day, after everything was completely backed up, I sat down to look through some pictures. I was completely floored by the number of pictures that I had no memory of taking, had never posted online, and haven't seen since they were shot. I was overjoyed. I spent a good hour sitting on the bed alternately laughing and crying.

I miss my girl so much, there's no way for me to even come close to expressing it. There's a part of me that will never be healthy and whole again. But going through these pictures reminded me again of so many great times that we had. Of the heart-swelling love that we had the privilege of feeling every single day.

I hurt because of what I had, which was wonderful.



  1. You're absolutely right. About everything.

  2. Such a cutie! Love the smile!

  3. What a beautiful memory you have!! I have commented to several people how well documented her life was in pictures!! You truely are blessed to have had her, even for such a short time!!

  4. I just read your comment on my blog, and came over here. I found your 'screeching halt' post and cannot stop crying over the loss of sweet Ryann. I am thankful you found some comfort in my words about loss but it's extremely humbling to read your story. I honestly think that my pain and sadness could never ever compare you yours and I'm tempted to go wake Truman from his nap just to hold him. Thank you for sharing, I wish you nothing but peace and happiness.

  5. I especially love the bath pictures. It's her very own personal pool and she is loving it! Such a precious little dear.